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((Monday Dec. 17th during Science class from http://brokenglass.17.forumer.com/viewtopic.php?t=1246&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=15))

What little was left of the walk she'd not said a word until they got to the office and she held open the door for Mirelle.

"Ok, all in. I'm not going to ring the buzzer unless you really need to see Miss Kane." She started rattling around in the room, "You need some pepto or Advil?"

Zee eyed the beds, "Gods I could use a nap..."

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Mirelle stood in the center of the room, shuffling her feet a bit...

"Ehe... um... I don't really need anything. I was just gonna sleep for a while."

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Zee looked up from the cabinet she'd been peering in. Nothing but band-aids and ACE bandages.

"Oh? well ok, I could use a little rest too..."

Of course she wasn't going to let her get off that easily, hard not to notice the usual Mirelle motions that nearly shouted she was keeping something to herself.

"What was all that back there? You nearly yanked off my arm before he even gave me the hall passes." Was she having problems in the class? Maybe with one of the other students? One of the Gents? Maybe a kitten?

She knew that both cliques hadn't been very understanding of her relationship with the Ace. She had certainly heard enough hissing from both sides.

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"Nothing," Mirelle scowled, "I just didn't feel like being in Science today, that's all."

It's annoying. He's annoying. And your whole 'concerned friend' stuff is getting annoying too. You guys will make a ~*~perfect~*~ couple. He can mess people's heads up, tell everyone how bad they are, and then you can come along and apologize for him...

She scowled harder, partially because she was angry that she could even *think* like that about Zee and partially because it felt like it was true.

I wonder if that's how Adrian feels about Jordan and me? Like no matter what I'll always side against him...

The thought made her stomach flutter with anxiety. She would never EVER let someone come between her and Adrian and yet...

..wasn't that what she'd been doing?

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"Fine then, if it's nothing...then it's nothing. I'm not going to beat it out of ya." She yawned widely and stretched like a small cat, "I don't feel much like being just as school either. How long til winter break?"

Ok, maybe she did kind of want to. Having to play nursemaid lately to too many members of her clique had been wearing down her usual good nature.

That and her brain was just full of so much at the moment, there was no way she'd be able to resist the siren call of the chance to nap that their 'get out of class free' cards had afforded them.

"You know, right now I don't even care that these are the beds that have probably launched a hundred trips for home pregnancy tests. I'm just beat." She sighed as she hopped up on a creaky mattress, stretched out then rolled onto her side with a sigh of contentment.

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Mirelle sat on the other bed, swinging her legs quietly.

"Zee..."

"Do you think...?"

She stopped and shrugged. It didn't really matter what Zee thought in the end. Women always side with their man. Kingdom come and kingdom fall but never get between a girl and her lord and master.

Madeline had always told that to Adrian teasingly but it made Mirelle's stomach flip.

"Carly says that rich people don't have real complaints. They just come up with reasons not to be happy."

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Pillowing her head with her arm she blinked over at Mirelle, "Well..." She thought for a moment and then continued.

"You're rich, why don't you tell me." Seemed the easiest answer to her, "Carly is that woman that runs the company, right?" She added for clarification sake.

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"She was Adrian's legal eagle for a while and then his CFO, and now she runs a wing of the corporation in Xinjiang," Mirelle explained.

"She doesn't like me much. But she pretty much hates everyone. She always tells Adrian that depression is a luxury just like eating disorders."

Mirelle slumped, "But I expect that kind of thing from her, I guess."

Her mouth tightened. The feelings of anger and sadness began boiling up again as the memories rolled back in.

"I..."

She trailed off again.

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Zee nodded, "Well, depression is a real thing it's just, some people that aren't really depressed use it as a crutch I think. I know that I get weird hormonal blues right before my period so I believe it's something chemically possible."

She chewed at her lip a bit, in thought, "Some people are just stronger than others, I bet she's one of them."

"People die from eating disorders." She put extra emphasis on the word 'die' , "I mean you have those girls that are skeletons thinking they're still fat and nothing can convince them to save their own lives. It's like, something in the mind gets reset all wonky because there's all this outside programming that poisons them slowly." Zee blinked, and realized she'd gone off on another natter and sighed, "But what do I know, it's just words, words, words."

"You what?" It seemed like Mirelle wanted to say something, but was hedging, again.

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Mirelle clenched her small fists and then burst out:

"I *hate* that you like Mr. Desjardin. I hate it. There's no one else that I can talk to... that isn't in his pocket. Jules will just get on her soap box and Jordan will too if he isn't looking up her skirt. George just agrees with me no matter what and Adrian... well Adrian is gonna beat the shit out of him any day now. And Uncle Jim has enough on his plate and... and..."

Mirelle grew pale with anger and spat out, "I really hate this school."

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Zee bolt up and blinked at Mirelle. The outburst had shocked her to her hair roots, which felt like they'd been electrified.

She scowled, most likely matching Mirelle's expression, "I am NOT in his pocket."

Growling still she echoed, "You're not the only one."

Everyday it was something new with the Phantoms. Most members of her clique seemed to want to spend more time moping and bitching than actually creating anything. She'd suggest some of them talk to the counselor, but noooo suffering was SO ARTISTIC.

She'd like to show them a little real suffering to shut them up.

No disipline and mommy and daddy buying them out of every little scrape so it would be off to whatever college they were going to go party and fuck away the next four years without worry of where that tuition money was going to come from.

Not to mention how the school seemed to be built over some Twilight Zone generator.

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"I really like him!"

"I really, really, really, really like him. I love him so much. It's so scary. Sometimes the only reason why I get up is because of him."

Mirelle turned her back so that Zee couldn't see whatever was on her face. Tears to be sure, but probably some sort of longing, aching expression that hurt too much to even think about.

"I realized it the last time I hung out with Richie."

"I liked Richie so much too. I think I still like him in some ways. But I never wanted to change for Richie. I just stayed the way I wanted to. He was the one who changed. For me."

And I broke his heart.

"But I just want Jordan to love me. And I'll do anything for the sake of that. It's so pathetic. It's exactly what he'd scold me for. You aren't supposed to change for someone else's sake but... but isn't it okay to change for love? Isn't that why people do anything at all?"

"I love him so much. I don't want.... I don't want to think about it because Adrian keeps saying that high school relationships aren't permanent. And... and when I think about it that's probably true. But I can't see anything that isn't Jordan. I just want him. All the time. Day and night. No matter where no matter when. That's how much I want his existence linked to mine."

"But..."

Her head slowly lowered and she clenched her small hand to her chest. It ached. It had never felt this badly before. Even when Adrian scolded her severely it had never hurt so much. She felt as if she would die from it.

"If he decides.... if he agrees with... if he thinks that I'm broken... depressed...useless."

"Then probably I will just become useless. Because the only other thing I could do is fall at his feet and beg him not to leave me."

She sobbed, "That's what happens when you open your heart to someone."

((Sorry delays....~_~ I started crying in the middle of writing this... stupid characters. x_x ))